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Unknown Destinations…

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“Are you destined to ride a wave of light that softly floats periwinkles upon the seashore,

or a wave of light that takes you into unparalleled possibilities

thru unknown destinations of time.”

unknown

DAY: bright, crisp, cold, quiet

WORD: possibilities

COLOUR: silver/gold

FEELING: insightful, aware, compassionate, understanding

BODY: gentle aching, sleepy, slow, content

THE COLLECTIVE: There is no need to feel overloaded now. Pace yourself, allow rest time. Be truthful about how you feel and act on it… 

INSIGHTS: last night as I lay in bed, I was suddenly watching a movie of my 2013. What an extraordinary year it has been! I don’t think I have ever lived through a year quite like it…It has been a true roller coaster ride. Which is the perfect way to describe it, with so many magnificent highs and lows too. But, Heavenly in so many ways…

There has been love and disappointment, passion and sorrow, comforting and discomfort, illness and wellness, long periods of lethargy for integration, followed by dancing! Some days a need for music and then going into periods of silence, feeling reverence and a desire for solitude.  Occasional fear and panic, followed by great hope and expansiveness. Other moments of complete weakness and a need for rest, yet there has been much restlessness.

Motivation came in waves…or a complete lack of it! Living in isolation almost, but often a strong need to be out in the big wide world!  Ah, the shifts, changes, ideas, creations!

Ecstatic moments of awareness, seeing ‘otherworldly’ energies, ‘messages’, insights, nudges and alchemical action. Days of intense energies all around me and inside me, downloads, then depletion…Reliving the past and often sensing the future, then back into the past…finally letting go! Over and over and over! Always forgiving, always understanding, embracing all that is new…

The joy in giving and the pleasure of receiving…Ah, expectations and acceptance. Perceptions and reflections, loving and caring…Oft, going into the void. A broken spirit, a well of loneliness…disappointments and yet, so many joyous moments too. My needs versus fierce independence…resolving, releasing, healing. Sharing and caring, teaching and guiding, nudging and holding…Carrying and letting go.

Oh, then laughter and many tears. From intense happiness to deep sadness all over again. At times I have felt so alone. Empty, depleted, bare…then new realisations, learning, leading to inspiration and elation! Full once more…Understanding and acceptance were constant!

And another thing that has been constant is rain. The Great Mother cleared and cleared and wept and wept…as the Great Heart opened wider. Growing and awakening, over and over like the tides…allowing. Then just ‘being’ with a new found knowing-ness. And praying for ALL that we are…holding up the Light, expanding it, lifting and falling, holding, guiding, supporting and finally a need to let go some more…insights, deep healing and the strength.

Loving, always loving and being of that Love, intense love, my melting heart, aching, full, at times painful…And sensual, desiring, feeling…then lifting these same feelings and desires…to richer love and brighter light…metamorphosis?

AND THEN: A need for change, to rearrange, to alter! To begin again? To move, to stay. Yet, preparing for the new, restless, owning, giving, accepting, understanding the need to go in deep…Finally settling.

Am I home? Great losses and great gains…In a new space in every possible way…The ‘spiritual avalanche’ is over…

I AM…..

The higher we soar the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly.

~Friedrich Nietzsche

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Author: Ashtara

'All my life I have yearned…' Andre Breton For a period of 15 years, I was the Principle of a well-known school in South Africa, the ‘Academy of Holistic Therapies’ which over time transformed into a place of deep spiritual and personal development, known then as the ‘Centre of Creative Consciousness’. My life changed suddenly and I moved to England in 1999. Not long after my arrival my long term reIationship ended abruptly and I developed serious heart issues. What followed was a 7 year period of death and rebirth... It led me along a path of deep introspection and growth. Through this experience including 2 near death experiences, I was forced to step into a new life, eventually giving me true understanding of who I AM and a more committed path. I moved to Glastonbury, believing then that it was to discover more of what I was searching for. Instead it has been yet another level of my own unfolding and my need to go deeper within, living a quiet solitary life, each day clearing the way to finding deeper levels of awareness and truth. All this moved at an ever changing pace towards truth and change as I released the past with forgiveness - gently guiding myself through all of the many challenges to a place of deep understanding and peace… This has allowed a very rich and beautiful connection to All That Is, an ability to tap into reservoirs of knowledge and wisdom, never before accessed. My desire is to support others in their ‘Awakening’ bringing love and understanding to many lives as they remember who they are. I care deeply about our planet, the animal kingdom and all sentient Beings during this time of dramatic change and Spiritual r/evolution on Earth. During the 7 years I realised that I enjoy being a 'modern day Alchemist' with a passion for working with colour, potions, remedies, tinctures, energy and vibrations. I was guided by Spirit to create a range of high vibrational colour essences, known as the ColourKEYS System. I see these ‘jewels’ as the unfolding of a 'story' yet to be revealed…They are a wonderful tool to support and assist those seeking the true path towards their destiny. I am at the completion stages of writing my first book, which will be published early next year. It is the story my extraordinary childhood in Africa.

One thought on “Unknown Destinations…

  1. Whoooaooo…………though not too spiritually conscious, I have felt so much of the described text of today, and still feel this immense restlessness leading to nowhere, somewhere?????? what a year……….scared to think what next year wil bring………love Laura

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