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A Tug Of War…

“Our feelings and emotions are like the tides of the ocean, 

never constant, but ever-changing and as unpredictable as waves.”

DAY: Bright, heavy with heat

WORD: Thoughtful

COLOUR: Aquamarine

FEELING: Alert, timeless. Since the Solstice I have felt the energies vary and shift frequently. After that day when the energies felt very powerful, I have experienced moments of feeling stretched and expansive, yet other moments of real physical sensitivity and discomfort.

The sudden arrival of coach loads of visitors to the town, to enjoy the warm summer days, has brought a feeling discord in the town…This will pass.

BODY: The warm sunny days have brought me a deep sense of wellbeing and joy The nights too hot to sleep restfully. Reading until 2am and in the stillness of the early hours, I was filled with deep reverence and peace… a quiet joy. And So It Is.

COLLECTIVE: Waiting. It feels as if the world is at war; different countries, differing groups, individuals, youngsters, teens, entire families and some at war with themselves! I am beginning to see more clearly and understand that it is the ‘old’ ways of ‘being’ dropping away. We are observing the many hanging on tight, with what they know to be familiar, because they feel safer living with that.

Life right now is a tug of war between the Old and all that is New, which is as yet unknown.    

INSIGHTS: Its important to spread our thoughts and beliefs in a loving and peaceful way, for the future to regain balance and harmony. Sit quiet and find your own answers. Find what resonates, what you feel in your heart and trust that to be your best way forward.

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Live Today…

TODAY: 

Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come.

Let go of what is happening now. 

Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. 

Relax, right now, and rest. 

Tilopa 

ONE WORD: 

Live!

COLOUR:

Green – Today, after using every tool I know, to feel ‘better.’ I saw in my minds eye, during a meditation a Green Heart, the colour becoming deeper and deeper…

After, I reached for a bottle of my Colour Matrix – Green Heart of All Things – to use myself…it felt so right! I sprayed around my heart, all of my body, then the room. I felt uplifted, lighter in my heart…

 

HOW I FEEL:

‘Most days it looks as if we live in the comedy zone dimension, filled with scary clowns.’

Gillian Macbeth-Louthan

I have become more aware of what I watch (TV/You Tube/News/Twitter etc) and have begun to read less about what is, what’s coming and what is ahead. This way its easier to stay true to my authentic nature. I am also far more attentive of the foods I select, using the best quality food and drink I can afford. This way we can remain positive, fresh and light. 

There are times when we all run back into old tired patterns of a well worn path, because as we step towards what is said to be all light, we find ourselves in a place of confusion, sadness and fatigue… 

PHYSICALLY:

‘Your body will need all the help you can give it to integrate these new energies.’

Celia Fenn 

While integrating new energy, I usually feel sensitive, feel everything too deeply and  then I sense what’s coming next – I feel ill at ease, often ’sick to the stomach…’ and my heart cries out to the world! 

On such days I rest more, and give myself what ever feels right to get me through, knowing that ‘this too shall pass…’ 

INSIGHTS:

‘Many of us are ashamed by the actions of our species.’ 

If we don’t become attentive inside our own personal ‘bubble of life’, we will go through phases of being unable to manage our lives. Many may reach rock bottom before change becomes possible (been there), others will burn out, many will simply leave… 

For myself, I use techniques and processes daily. I meditate, listen to my body and pay careful attention to my needs. I often stay home for weeks, when the energies are fragmented out there…here in my own safe haven, I am assured of a feeling of balance and harmony.

There are times when one has to dig deep to stay ‘real and true’, to stay in that balanced place, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Making sure that self talk is not angry, frustrated, forlorn or defeated… 

THE COLLECTIVE: 

“Your soul knows the geography of your destiny.”

John O’Donohue

You and I can not save the world! Does She need saving (another subject)? We can save ourselves as we live though this extraordinary time on earth, by being aware, not of others and their needs – but our own.

Sit tight with big decisions. Focus on what you wish to let go of – job, home, name, friends, relationships…Do not let doubt or uncertainty stop you.

Make peace with your choices, make space for what’s coming. Allow. Embrace all that is coming towards you and who you are becoming. Begin to find where you belong, listen to your heart and go where you feel led to be…Go!

AFFIRMATION:

“I am perfect just the way I AM”


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Understanding…

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders.” 

Andrew Harvey 

TODAY: The day is undecided – rain or dull heavy clouds. I feel chilled, silent, deep, touched by Gods constant rain…There is a fine mist outside, the earth sodden, the world asleep.

WORD: Expectant

COLOUR: Green

I FEEL:

“I became aware of my destiny: to belong to the critical minority as opposed to the unquestioning majority.”

Sigmund Freud

Restless yet lethargic. Am I awakening to a more realistic view of life on earth? My Heart is filled with love and awe, as well as disappointments and sadness. Am I misunderstanding or simply misunderstood.

PHYSICALLY:

Unsettled. Dealing with the death of my brother. Renewal in progress, processing emotions. Sleep comes and goes, days fly by…are there enough hours to just ‘be’, to feel, to know, to understand then to integrate and rest… 

INSIGHTS:

“Would you like to save the world from the degradation and destruction it seems destined for? Then step away from shallow mass movements and quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself.”

Lao Tzu

I am sensing that in the past few weeks, we have begun to regain balance and strength. Yet, there will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too weak to go about your usual routine…then rest, be kind, allow yourself time to regroup and refresh.

THE COLLECTIVE:

‘On this path you will find yourself many, many times resisting with every fibre of your being just being here. There are places that will open in this blossoming which you would not want to open.’

Chameli Ardagh

Life is hurling ahead at a speed that none can understand or believe – yet much time has passed and we are being reborn and almost able to ‘see’ a new vision with new eyes. I feel the changes hourly and understand the many fears and uncertainties.

‎”Throw back the shoulders, let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself…nothing is impossible!”

Norman Vincent Peale


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Walking On Thin Ice…

TODAY:

We are all tired.

Really, we are.

It’s a hard road, but it’s also a beautiful one.

Jeff Brown

I woke on Friday to find thick snow had fallen. It was an icy cold morning. The wind fierce, the vision before me a carpet of pristine snow. The roof icy white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in heavy clumps of snow. The gutters and window ledges hung with clear icicles…

Yesterday, my small paved garden, had a layer of solid ice under the blanket of snow. I chopped and hacked to create a pathway to the bird feeders. It was tough work.

Later, I rewarded myself with freshly buttered scones and a pot of hot steaming coffee. I settled into my cosy haven for the weekend. Yet I felt unsettled…

Today after rain in the night, the snow has mysteriously disappeared. As if it never was. Traces of ice on my property are scattered around in small blocks. My body aches from yesterdays efforts to clear snow and ice but, today is bright. A fresh start awaits…

ONE WORD: Endurance

COLOUR: Ice White

I FEEL: Timeless.


For months, in between completing my first book, I have been deep in thought on perhaps too many matters…spiritual, scientific, political, historic, personal – but mostly about the people, the animals and our environment.
Yet, I have felt far away from people and places. At a distance.

I have sensed both heaviness and light…as life shifts and weaves, moves, heaves and turns…the road falters, then alters course. We try to reverse but too late, onward we go. Are we on the right road, or, on a road to nowhere, I ask myself…

INSIGHTS:

“Change Follows Chaos…”
Everything around us is signalling for dynamic change. Celebrate it and let it be so. Live these coming months in a way that shows that you know that everything in life matters. I intend to do so.

I know many of us feel fooled, frustrated and tired. Yet around us life is shifting. The people, governments, the very earth and sky…

THE COLLECTIVE:

Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world.

Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.

Let your soul take you where you long to be.

Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.


Erich Fromm

Life is full of unexpected surprises right now. Often they are a shock to us. Surely our main responsibility is to care of ourselves first! Or we could be at risk of burn-out at this time of fast paced living and change. Find balance and keep that balance. It is essential to every aspect of our survival.

I know many are dealing with insomnia, tension, sinus, tinnitus, headaches, feeling unsettled, even living on auto pilot. I have had to rearrange my daily routine to accommodate the strange sleep patterns I am having. I am going with it.

I understand that we are transforming ourselves on every possible level, and the transition from the ‘old’ to the ‘new’ is a daunting, often overwhelming process. Even if we have no idea what that means yet…

AFFIRMATION:

“I AM safe…”

 

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Our Unfamiliar World…

‘Another world is not only possible,
she is on her way.
On a quiet day,
I can hear her breathing.’

Arudhati Roy

I spent most of 2017 writing my first book. Its not the long awaited book on Colour Therapy, or healing modalities, or of spiritual wisdom that I have gained over too many years to mention…it is about my childhood in Africa, which was most unusual, to say the least. For the final three months I was very ill with pneumonia.

For that reason I have spent little time writing my Blog on WordPress. I once did so, almost daily. I also stopped writing my 7-page bi-monthly Newsletter last year, after 10 years.

I am working through the proof-reading and correcting of my first book draft. I have gone beyond the 82,000words/290 pages I anticipated would be ‘the end’ – as more insights and memories came to me. The proof reading is a time consuming task…


It has been an interesting, cathartic, joyful, amusing and often grippingly painful process, writing about my childhood. But I have no regrets about beginning the project. Now all I need is sound advise from an editor and of course, a publisher.

I have new plans and ideas for this year, but I firstly wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for their loyal support, kindness and encouragement through the years.
I know many of my long time followers, were deeply disappointed when I stopped the Newsletter, but the time felt right.

May this Year 2018 – offer you all that you have dreamed of and all that you most need.

‘Take my hand and lead me, to where I am meant to be,


I am so thirsty for this life and all I want to see,


Open my Heart and let me feel, the precious elixir of Living, 


show to me Unconditional Love, the true Gift of giving’

Bev Stratton-Poemper

DAY: Dull, low clouded sky, mist, damp, icy cold, washing away the last of the old…
The days merging into one another, with constant wind, rain and cold.

WORD: Communication

COLOUR: Fiery Red

FEELING:

“I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go”
Unknown

I have had several challenging nights, with little sleep. Feeling unsettled, restless…yet filled with new ideas, brain storming, recharged and inspired.

BODY: In need of more sleep.

INSIGHTS
“Between the lines we are being energetically whacked, as the winds of change move through us.”

I know that right now few of us recognise our outside world. And for now, and in months to come, it may not look or sound anything like you imagined it to be. Its not what you dreamed, Its not what you imagined.
Let me tell you that your dream will come – but for now accept that our world is dismantling the old systems and all that it carried. Any signs of fear, discord even violence, need to be seen as part of a huge cleansing.

I believe life on Earth has a complex agenda, often so intricate that the human mind can not grasp what is happening. We need to trust and know that on a very deep soul level we understand that we are safe…

‘One of the most important things to be understood about man is that man is asleep. Even while he thinks he is awake, he is not. 

His wakefulness is very fragile; his wakefulness is so tiny it doesn’t matter at all. 

His wakefulness is only a beautiful name but utterly empty.’

THE COLLECTIVE:
‘The days come and go. If we do not use the gifts they bring, they say nothing and carry them silently away. Life is a daring adventure, meant to be experienced with love.’

Many are in need of healing, feeling frazzled and raw, needing to express feelings. There are old and new thoughts and feelings surfacing.

‘The Winds of Spirit are blowing stronger now, and it is most useful to have a better sense of how to find your way in a world that is increasingly unfamiliar.’

Bill Attride

AFFIRMATION: “I move forward with grace and gratitude…”

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Heaven’s Gate…

 

TODAY:

“There is a silence into which the world cannot intrude. There is an ancient peace you carry in your heart and have not lost. Discover it.”  

(A Course in Miracles)

Once more a dull day with low slung grey clouds. The rains have been constant this Summer, the damp and chilly air has never completely been replaced by long periods of sunshine. I lay staring out of my bedroom window, watching the soft ribbons of morning light struggling to shine through heavy clouds.

 

ONE WORD: Balance

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Select a colour for yourself today:

Red – I have all the vitality I need. I am safe
Orange – I have all the fun I need. I am sensual
Yellow – I am allowing more and more Joy into my life!
Green – I am in the perfect space to be me!
Blue – I own my voice! I am peace…
Violet – I release old grief and lift myself up even higher…
White – I am pure white liquid light…I see clearly now … more? go to ColourKEYS

 

HOW I FEEL:

“I wonder where life is leading me …”  Pierre de Chardin

Gentle, open, loving, aware of a huge ‘next’ coming towards us. Candles lit, prayer done, invocations voiced then gentle acceptance…

It has been a challenging time for most of us, these past months. With strange weather, unexpected happenings, political and emotional upheaval and strange summer days…which has been rather a non-event. But, today, I feel stronger, empowered, back on track…

I have been writing my first book at a steady pace. The first draught is complete. Its an interesting, and I dare say, entertaining account of my childhood in Africa, surrounded by extraordinary people in very unusual circumstances. There is a way to go yet, with the proof-reading, editing and all those processes which are not as much fun as the writing of the story…I will get there.

If any of my followers have advise about publishers, publishing, please feel free to offer advise, I am new to all that, and to be honest its seems completely baffling and also expensive!

 

PHYSICALLY:

‘With every ‘crumbling’ or low point in life, we remerge strengthened, wiser, and refreshed.’  Ashtara

Softly, slowly settling after the eclipse and what came before that event. My body has felt heavy and tired. I remain aware and offer self nurturing, allowing the new…

 

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INSIGHTS:

‘So do not let a weary body and a perhaps somewhat befuddled mind hold you back more than necessary.’ Aisha North

Recent shifts have been powerful! I sense that there is no going back. It is difficult for everyone to understand this, to grasp such an idea.
I know that many of us have come through struggle and heartache…I feel that the hard part is over…we are in better place, with only the changes to settle into.

I have had my share of days that were topsy-turvy, with unfolding events that were unexplainable. Often accompanied by overwhelm and physical discomfort. I have remained focused on my inner work – working diligently at clearing the residue of my old patterns…

Suddenly a new energy seemed to nudge me gently through the challenges that I have faced in the past few weeks. Finally I sensed a new lightness, with the offer of new beginnings and a clean stale.

I see everyday as an opportunity to look at what’s possible and then for us to decided “yes please”….or “no thank you.” Today is such an opportunity; to add a new meaningful dimension to our life…

 

THE COLLECTIVE:

I am contemplating the crumbling that comes into every life, the kind of falling apart that happens when the ice thaws and the rivers flow and new life emerges.” Oriah

Great and essential changes are occurring in every moment. Awareness of the need for such changes grows. I pray that in time, a new sense of understanding, kindness and peace, amongst all of humanity will grow, bringing with it – a sense of lightness and enthusiasm that is infectious for all.

‘The past as you know it is over. The new is very subtly hidden, but active and aligned. Your purpose, if you focus, is crystal clear already.
Your heart often feels fear and vacillates from being fully open and then over protective…
Eventually you will feel safer and balanced enough – then you will fully harness the extent of the energy of Love that your heart carries.’

(Part of a channelled message via Ashtara)

 

AFFIRMATION:

                                                “I embrace change and welcome new beginnings”.

I give to you the end of a golden string,


Only wind it into a ball:


It will lead you in at Heaven’s gate,


Built in Jerusalem’s wall.

From Jerusalem – William Blake

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Rest and Quietness…

Run My Dear,
From Anything That May Not Strengthen
Your Precious Budding Wings.
Run Like Hell My Dear,
From Anyone Likely To Put A Sharp Knife Into The Sacred,
Tender Vision Of Your Beautiful Heart.
Hafiz

TODAY: ‘I greet you on this most glorious of days, days of light, dark, wind and rain…what is to follow is change most victorious with re-alignments of both the planet and her people…’*

I woke to a day that felt uncertain, fresh, cloudy, with soft beads of water hanging on everything outside, from a night of gentle rain.

WORD: Timelessness

COLOUR: Gold

I FEEL:
To everyone I offer quietness
To everyone I offer peace of mind
To everyone I offer gentleness 

This year, including these past weeks…has been a roller coaster ride, with many dramatic highs and shattering lows. Occasional nano seconds of fear and panic, followed by hope and elation. Other moments of complete weakness and a need for sleep, yet a restlessness within.

Often I have felt alone, depleted, bare…followed by new realisations, growth and forgiveness. Understanding and acceptance have been constant.

INSIGHTS: Our journey has to be through Grace. For many of us, past experiences are being acknowledged and released so that we may walk through any storm, taller and with Grace.

Look at the World and look at your life…we each need to make sacrifices, perhaps starting with very small ones, moving through and towards larger compromises – this leading us back to balance as humans, as a society and for our life on Earth.

THE COLLECTIVE:
“We ask today for rest and quietness, unshaken by the world’s appearances”
A Course in Miracles

Each one of us is different and needs different…
Some of us are more sensitive than others. Once we begin to understand who we are and how we react to outside issues and events, we can begin to make changes that will allow us to bring our best to each day.

If you find certain days more of a struggle, slow down and take it easy. Take a day to rest. The world isn’t going to go anywhere while you recover. And when your feel re-balanced and whole again, go back out into the world to play, to share, to give.

AFFIRMATION: “I AM truly Blessed every day…”

‘Someday everything will make perfect sense’
Paulo Coelho

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*Taken from a channelled message received by me.