Meandering minds Lost within the labyrinth Seeking a way home * A simple pathway Entrance and exit aligned Each step a journey *
“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders.”
TODAY: The day is undecided – rain or dull heavy clouds. I feel chilled, silent, deep, touched by Gods constant rain…There is a fine mist outside, the earth sodden, the world asleep.
“I became aware of my destiny: to belong to the critical minority as opposed to the unquestioning majority.”
Restless yet lethargic. Am I awakening to a more realistic view of life on earth? My Heart is filled with love and awe, as well as disappointments and sadness. Am I misunderstanding or simply misunderstood.
Unsettled. Dealing with the death of my brother. Renewal in progress, processing emotions. Sleep comes and goes, days fly by…are there enough hours to just ‘be’, to feel, to know, to understand then to integrate and rest…
“Would you like to save the world from the degradation and destruction it seems destined for? Then step away from shallow mass movements and quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself.”
I am sensing that in the past few weeks, we have begun to regain balance and strength. Yet, there will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too weak to go about your usual routine…then rest, be kind, allow yourself time to regroup and refresh.
‘On this path you will find yourself many, many times resisting with every fibre of your being just being here. There are places that will open in this blossoming which you would not want to open.’
Life is hurling ahead at a speed that none can understand or believe – yet much time has passed and we are being reborn and almost able to ‘see’ a new vision with new eyes. I feel the changes hourly and understand the many fears and uncertainties.
”Throw back the shoulders, let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself…nothing is impossible!”
Norman Vincent Peale
We are all tired.
Really, we are.
It’s a hard road, but it’s also a beautiful one.
I woke on Friday to find thick snow had fallen. It was an icy cold morning. The wind fierce, the vision before me a carpet of pristine snow. The roof icy white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in heavy clumps of snow. The gutters and window ledges hung with clear icicles…
Yesterday, my small paved garden, had a layer of solid ice under the blanket of snow. I chopped and hacked to create a pathway to the bird feeders. It was tough work.
Later, I rewarded myself with freshly buttered scones and a pot of hot steaming coffee. I settled into my cosy haven for the weekend. Yet I felt unsettled…
Today after rain in the night, the snow has mysteriously disappeared. As if it never was. Traces of ice on my property are scattered around in small blocks. My body aches from yesterdays efforts to clear snow and ice but, today is bright. A fresh start awaits…
ONE WORD: Endurance
COLOUR: Ice White
I FEEL: Timeless.
For months, in between completing my first book, I have been deep in thought on perhaps too many matters…spiritual, scientific, political, historic, personal – but mostly about the people, the animals and our environment.
Yet, I have felt far away from people and places. At a distance.
I have sensed both heaviness and light…as life shifts and weaves, moves, heaves and turns…the road falters, then alters course. We try to reverse but too late, onward we go. Are we on the right road, or, on a road to nowhere, I ask myself…
“Change Follows Chaos…”
Everything around us is signalling for dynamic change. Celebrate it and let it be so. Live these coming months in a way that shows that you know that everything in life matters. I intend to do so.
I know many of us feel fooled, frustrated and tired. Yet around us life is shifting. The people, governments, the very earth and sky…
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world.
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.
Let your soul take you where you long to be.
Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.
Life is full of unexpected surprises right now. Often they are a shock to us. Surely our main responsibility is to care of ourselves first! Or we could be at risk of burn-out at this time of fast paced living and change. Find balance and keep that balance. It is essential to every aspect of our survival.
I know many are dealing with insomnia, tension, sinus, tinnitus, headaches, feeling unsettled, even living on auto pilot. I have had to rearrange my daily routine to accommodate the strange sleep patterns I am having. I am going with it.
I understand that we are transforming ourselves on every possible level, and the transition from the ‘old’ to the ‘new’ is a daunting, often overwhelming process. Even if we have no idea what that means yet…
“I AM safe…”
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‘Another world is not only possible,
she is on her way.
On a quiet day,
I can hear her breathing.’
I spent most of 2017 writing my first book. Its not the long awaited book on Colour Therapy, or healing modalities, or of spiritual wisdom that I have gained over too many years to mention…it is about my childhood in Africa, which was most unusual, to say the least. For the final three months I was very ill with pneumonia.
For that reason I have spent little time writing my Blog on WordPress. I once did so, almost daily. I also stopped writing my 7-page bi-monthly Newsletter last year, after 10 years.
I am working through the proof-reading and correcting of my first book draft. I have gone beyond the 82,000words/290 pages I anticipated would be ‘the end’ – as more insights and memories came to me. The proof reading is a time consuming task…
It has been an interesting, cathartic, joyful, amusing and often grippingly painful process, writing about my childhood. But I have no regrets about beginning the project. Now all I need is sound advise from an editor and of course, a publisher.
I have new plans and ideas for this year, but I firstly wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for their loyal support, kindness and encouragement through the years.
I know many of my long time followers, were deeply disappointed when I stopped the Newsletter, but the time felt right.
May this Year 2018 – offer you all that you have dreamed of and all that you most need.
‘Take my hand and lead me, to where I am meant to be,
I am so thirsty for this life and all I want to see,
Open my Heart and let me feel, the precious elixir of Living,
show to me Unconditional Love, the true Gift of giving’
DAY: Dull, low clouded sky, mist, damp, icy cold, washing away the last of the old…
The days merging into one another, with constant wind, rain and cold.
COLOUR: Fiery Red
“I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go”
I have had several challenging nights, with little sleep. Feeling unsettled, restless…yet filled with new ideas, brain storming, recharged and inspired.
BODY: In need of more sleep.
“Between the lines we are being energetically whacked, as the winds of change move through us.”
I know that right now few of us recognise our outside world. And for now, and in months to come, it may not look or sound anything like you imagined it to be. Its not what you dreamed, Its not what you imagined.
Let me tell you that your dream will come – but for now accept that our world is dismantling the old systems and all that it carried. Any signs of fear, discord even violence, need to be seen as part of a huge cleansing.
I believe life on Earth has a complex agenda, often so intricate that the human mind can not grasp what is happening. We need to trust and know that on a very deep soul level we understand that we are safe…
‘One of the most important things to be understood about man is that man is asleep. Even while he thinks he is awake, he is not.
His wakefulness is very fragile; his wakefulness is so tiny it doesn’t matter at all.
His wakefulness is only a beautiful name but utterly empty.’
‘The days come and go. If we do not use the gifts they bring, they say nothing and carry them silently away. Life is a daring adventure, meant to be experienced with love.’
Many are in need of healing, feeling frazzled and raw, needing to express feelings. There are old and new thoughts and feelings surfacing.
‘The Winds of Spirit are blowing stronger now, and it is most useful to have a better sense of how to find your way in a world that is increasingly unfamiliar.’
AFFIRMATION: “I move forward with grace and gratitude…”
In the unfathomable depths of Stillness
Love is all pervading
In Silence I perceive
In Silence I receive – Pure and Holy Blessing.
I Am found.
The final days of 2017 are leading us to a new year…2018 (=11) approach us rapidly now! Many changes have occurred this year. Many events experienced. We have each done well to get this far!
Now, keep your loved ones close, your home filled with love, your health stable. Eat from reliable sources. Drink more water and ensure that it is pure, charged with good vibrations.
Allow your sleep to be ‘broken’ if that is how it is, use the waking time wisely and your sleep hours to rest and recoup. Embrace your life in this coming new year, appreciate all that it is. Expand your consciousness to encompass and embrace a new future…
I feel joyous to be here, enriched by each and every challenging experience that 2017 presented me with.
I bow to the Grand Plan and its complexities, its sheer brilliance. I bow in total devotion and surrender to the Creator and the majesty the magnificence of this planet.
There are no need for more words, no need for arguments, no confirmation, no dramas. There is only a field of DIVINE LOVE, where all words come to pass into nothingness. It’s a ‘place’ where truth speaks on its own.
I will meet You there…”
“Beneath our efforts to put spiritual form into our lives,
the world slowly accumulates, starting with the whole of matter,
that which will make of it the Heavenly Jerusalem or the New Earth”
Pierre Teilhard De Chardin – Le Milieu Divin
Take it slowly, my love. If you need the time to think and look thing over, do it. If you require reflection on your emotions
‘For what is it to die, but to stand in the sun and melt into the wind?
And when the Earth has claimed our limbs,
Then we shall truly dance.’
TODAY: Grey, dull, unsheltered, cold. Winter in all her glory.
I woke to a very icy morning. The world was carpeted in thin ice. The roof white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in little frosty icicles. There was early damp mist. I put the kettle on…
ONE WORD: Acceptance – of the ‘such-ness’ of life
COLOUR: Red – Gold
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
I find myself holding back and observing. Saying less but feeling more. Being more of who I am. Surrendering to ‘just being’ and allowing life to unfold around me. There are synchronicities, insights, clearer understanding, along with minor irritations at the things I do not yet understand or accept, as my truth. Discernment required.
The writing of my book based on my extraordinary childhood in Africa, is complete. I am busy with proofreading and re-writing sections, preparing for professional editing.
And though we seem to be sleeping,
there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream,
that will eventually startle us back to the Truth of who we are.
Slow and lethargic interspersed with vibrant upbeat inquisitive energy.
Taking time to do ‘no-thing.’ No longer fighting it. This too shall pass…It’s similar to rebooting a computer. A need to shut down for brief periods of time, in order to load new software.
‘We need time to replenish
trusting that the inner journey has removed the masks
and will eventually reveal a face that is more our own.’
I know, I understand, I accept, I honour, I see, I hear, I ponder…
I believe in Divine Timing and feel that All That Is knows exactly what’s coming next. Perhaps a time to sit quietly and reflect, or simply rest a while…before a new year begins.
“We need to make deep and profound changes in the way we live,
if we want future generations to inherit from us a viable planet.”
I trust that we are all doing the best we can at this point in time, with what we know and understand to be truth. As we look around at our world and the greater world ‘out there’ it certainly seems to be in chaos, but I do believe that all of the old ways must break away before we will be able to rebuild our world. This was been said since ancient times.
The balance of power will be restored, negative and positive will finally align on planet earth. Not today, or tomorrow, but slowly and surely. I do believe it will…
I am thankful that I share this planet with you. Like minds make us feel less lonely.
AFFIRMATION: “All is well in my world…”