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A Second Wind…

Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead.
 Louisa May Alcott

TODAY:

A cooler morning. Fine mist above the taller trees. I see fine wet cobwebs…The day feels soft and delicate. Or is that me. 

ONE WORD: Gratitude

COLOUR: Green

I FEEL:

I have thought often of my Blog page and those who follow my posts. I want to apologise for not writing any recent Blogs…but where has this year gone. We seem to have travelled though time at supersonic speed.

I have faced many challenges this year so far, physically and emotionally. It has been that way for many. A year of change with no more sitting on the fence.

I have also reworked and polished my book about my childhood in S.Africa during apartheid, (yet to be published). There was more work there than I thought when I typed the last word! I am doing my final read/edit and am happy with it. It has taken 18 months to complete. It has been cathartic in many ways and a real struggle too. Who would have thought!

‘Colonial Africa – white men with their exclusive clubs their cocktail parties and their delicate wives.’

Ann Cleeves  

“It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life.

Where you stumble, there lies your treasure.”

Joseph Campbell

My path has become a deeply spiritual life and for that reason, solitary…The energy of Glastonbury and the ‘free-spirit’ attitude (I am a city girl at heart), has allowed me time and space to do a deep level of inner work. While writing it became clear why I am here at all…I often wondered.

INSIGHTS: The final months this year will continue to challenge and surprise us all. Be aware of your own limits. Many of us need time out to find a ‘second wind.’  There will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too lethargic to go about our usual routine…I have learnt to pay attention to my needs and rest. I hope you do the same.

AFFIRMATION: “I AM powerful, loving and unafraid…”

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A Tug Of War…

“Our feelings and emotions are like the tides of the ocean, 

never constant, but ever-changing and as unpredictable as waves.”

DAY: Bright, heavy with heat

WORD: Thoughtful

COLOUR: Aquamarine

FEELING: Alert, timeless. Since the Solstice I have felt the energies vary and shift frequently. After that day when the energies felt very powerful, I have experienced moments of feeling stretched and expansive, yet other moments of real physical sensitivity and discomfort.

The sudden arrival of coach loads of visitors to the town, to enjoy the warm summer days, has brought a feeling discord in the town…This will pass.

BODY: The warm sunny days have brought me a deep sense of wellbeing and joy The nights too hot to sleep restfully. Reading until 2am and in the stillness of the early hours, I was filled with deep reverence and peace… a quiet joy. And So It Is.

COLLECTIVE: Waiting. It feels as if the world is at war; different countries, differing groups, individuals, youngsters, teens, entire families and some at war with themselves! I am beginning to see more clearly and understand that it is the ‘old’ ways of ‘being’ dropping away. We are observing the many hanging on tight, with what they know to be familiar, because they feel safer living with that.

Life right now is a tug of war between the Old and all that is New, which is as yet unknown.    

INSIGHTS: Its important to spread our thoughts and beliefs in a loving and peaceful way, for the future to regain balance and harmony. Sit quiet and find your own answers. Find what resonates, what you feel in your heart and trust that to be your best way forward.


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Understanding…

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders.” 

Andrew Harvey 

TODAY: The day is undecided – rain or dull heavy clouds. I feel chilled, silent, deep, touched by Gods constant rain…There is a fine mist outside, the earth sodden, the world asleep.

WORD: Expectant

COLOUR: Green

I FEEL:

“I became aware of my destiny: to belong to the critical minority as opposed to the unquestioning majority.”

Sigmund Freud

Restless yet lethargic. Am I awakening to a more realistic view of life on earth? My Heart is filled with love and awe, as well as disappointments and sadness. Am I misunderstanding or simply misunderstood.

PHYSICALLY:

Unsettled. Dealing with the death of my brother. Renewal in progress, processing emotions. Sleep comes and goes, days fly by…are there enough hours to just ‘be’, to feel, to know, to understand then to integrate and rest… 

INSIGHTS:

“Would you like to save the world from the degradation and destruction it seems destined for? Then step away from shallow mass movements and quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself.”

Lao Tzu

I am sensing that in the past few weeks, we have begun to regain balance and strength. Yet, there will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too weak to go about your usual routine…then rest, be kind, allow yourself time to regroup and refresh.

THE COLLECTIVE:

‘On this path you will find yourself many, many times resisting with every fibre of your being just being here. There are places that will open in this blossoming which you would not want to open.’

Chameli Ardagh

Life is hurling ahead at a speed that none can understand or believe – yet much time has passed and we are being reborn and almost able to ‘see’ a new vision with new eyes. I feel the changes hourly and understand the many fears and uncertainties.

‎”Throw back the shoulders, let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself…nothing is impossible!”

Norman Vincent Peale


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Walking On Thin Ice…

TODAY:

We are all tired.

Really, we are.

It’s a hard road, but it’s also a beautiful one.

Jeff Brown

I woke on Friday to find thick snow had fallen. It was an icy cold morning. The wind fierce, the vision before me a carpet of pristine snow. The roof icy white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in heavy clumps of snow. The gutters and window ledges hung with clear icicles…

Yesterday, my small paved garden, had a layer of solid ice under the blanket of snow. I chopped and hacked to create a pathway to the bird feeders. It was tough work.

Later, I rewarded myself with freshly buttered scones and a pot of hot steaming coffee. I settled into my cosy haven for the weekend. Yet I felt unsettled…

Today after rain in the night, the snow has mysteriously disappeared. As if it never was. Traces of ice on my property are scattered around in small blocks. My body aches from yesterdays efforts to clear snow and ice but, today is bright. A fresh start awaits…

ONE WORD: Endurance

COLOUR: Ice White

I FEEL: Timeless.


For months, in between completing my first book, I have been deep in thought on perhaps too many matters…spiritual, scientific, political, historic, personal – but mostly about the people, the animals and our environment.
Yet, I have felt far away from people and places. At a distance.

I have sensed both heaviness and light…as life shifts and weaves, moves, heaves and turns…the road falters, then alters course. We try to reverse but too late, onward we go. Are we on the right road, or, on a road to nowhere, I ask myself…

INSIGHTS:

“Change Follows Chaos…”
Everything around us is signalling for dynamic change. Celebrate it and let it be so. Live these coming months in a way that shows that you know that everything in life matters. I intend to do so.

I know many of us feel fooled, frustrated and tired. Yet around us life is shifting. The people, governments, the very earth and sky…

THE COLLECTIVE:

Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world.

Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.

Let your soul take you where you long to be.

Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.


Erich Fromm

Life is full of unexpected surprises right now. Often they are a shock to us. Surely our main responsibility is to care of ourselves first! Or we could be at risk of burn-out at this time of fast paced living and change. Find balance and keep that balance. It is essential to every aspect of our survival.

I know many are dealing with insomnia, tension, sinus, tinnitus, headaches, feeling unsettled, even living on auto pilot. I have had to rearrange my daily routine to accommodate the strange sleep patterns I am having. I am going with it.

I understand that we are transforming ourselves on every possible level, and the transition from the ‘old’ to the ‘new’ is a daunting, often overwhelming process. Even if we have no idea what that means yet…

AFFIRMATION:

“I AM safe…”

 

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12:12

In the unfathomable depths of Stillness


Love is all pervading
In Silence I perceive

In Silence I receive
 – Pure and Holy Blessing.

In Silence

I Am found.

Nicolya Christi

The final days of 2017 are leading us to a new year…2018 (=11) approach us rapidly now! Many changes have occurred this year. Many events experienced. We have each done well to get this far!

Now, keep your loved ones close, your home filled with love, your health stable. Eat from reliable sources. Drink more water and ensure that it is pure, charged with good vibrations.

Allow your sleep to be ‘broken’ if that is how it is, use the waking time wisely and your sleep hours to rest and recoup. Embrace your life in this coming new year, appreciate all that it is. Expand your consciousness to encompass and embrace a new future…

I feel joyous to be here, enriched by each and every challenging experience that 2017 presented me with.
I bow to the Grand Plan and its complexities, its sheer brilliance. I bow in total devotion and surrender to the Creator and the majesty the magnificence of this planet.

There are no need for more words, no need for arguments, no confirmation, no dramas. There is only a field of DIVINE LOVE, where all words come to pass into nothingness. It’s a ‘place’ where truth speaks on its own.
I will meet You there…”

“Beneath our efforts to put spiritual form into our lives,

the world slowly accumulates, starting with the whole of matter,

that which will make of it the Heavenly Jerusalem or the New Earth”

Pierre Teilhard De Chardin – Le Milieu Divin


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Meanwhile, the World Goes On…

‘For what is it to die, but to stand in the sun and melt into the wind?

And when the Earth has claimed our limbs,

Then we shall truly dance.’

Khalil Gibran

TODAY: Grey, dull, unsheltered, cold. Winter in all her glory.
I woke to a very icy morning. The world was carpeted in thin ice. The roof white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in little frosty icicles. There was early damp mist. I put the kettle on…

ONE WORD: Acceptance – of the ‘such-ness’ of life

COLOUR: Red – Gold

I FEEL:
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Mary Oliver

I find myself holding back and observing. Saying less but feeling more. Being more of who I am. Surrendering to ‘just being’ and allowing life to unfold around me. There are synchronicities, insights, clearer understanding, along with minor irritations at the things I do not yet understand or accept, as my truth. Discernment required.

The writing of my book based on my extraordinary childhood in Africa, is complete. I am busy with proofreading and re-writing sections, preparing for professional editing.

PHYSICALLY:

And though we seem to be sleeping,

there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream,

that will eventually startle us back to the Truth of who we are.

Rumi

Slow and lethargic interspersed with vibrant upbeat inquisitive energy.
Taking time to do ‘no-thing.’ No longer fighting it. This too shall pass…It’s similar to rebooting a computer. A need to shut down for brief periods of time, in order to load new software.

INSIGHTS:

‘We need time to replenish

trusting that the inner journey has removed the masks

and will eventually reveal a face that is more our own.’
Kristen

I know, I understand, I accept, I honour, I see, I hear, I ponder…
I believe in Divine Timing and feel that All That Is knows exactly what’s coming next. Perhaps a time to sit quietly and reflect, or simply rest a while…before a new year begins.

THE COLLECTIVE:

“We need to make deep and profound changes in the way we live,

if we want future generations to inherit from us a viable planet.”  

Starhawk

I trust that we are all doing the best we can at this point in time, with what we know and understand to be truth. As we look around at our world and the greater world ‘out there’ it certainly seems to be in chaos, but I do believe that all of the old ways must break away before we will be able to rebuild our world. This was been said since ancient times.

The balance of power will be restored, negative and positive will finally align on planet earth. Not today, or tomorrow, but slowly and surely. I do believe it will…

I am thankful that I share this planet with you. Like minds make us feel less lonely.

AFFIRMATION: “All is well in my world…”


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Fall Back Together…

What we are most afraid of
are the actions, words, and thoughts
that reveal our innermost beings…

Yet therein lies our strength,
our hope of healing,
and our true points of refuge.

For in our frailties there lies
a raw beauty, a sacredness…

There is a flame that flickers
and roars!
Eric

TODAY: Silent, icy, slow, pensive

ONE WORD: Opening

COLOUR: Shades of Autumn.

I FEEL:

“The sun shines not on us but in us. The rivers flow not past, but through us,

thrilling, tingling, vibrating every fibre and cell of the substance of our bodies, making them glide and sing.”
John Muir

I woke in the early hours. It was eerily silent.
Glastonbury to me, is like the microcosm of the macrocosm and some of us here feel the energies of the planet/world as it shifts, quite strongly…I felt it through the thin veil.

There was low mysterious mist hanging outside. My face and hands felt icy. I wrapped myself in my soft fluffy gown and slowly strolled around the house. I picked up one of my Pulse Pomanders and applied it to my wrists. I breathed in the aroma…
As I settled, I felt reverence in my heart…
It has been a challenging two month, yet I feel as if I have stepped through and into a new phase. I feel wiser, strengthened and inquisitive.

PHYSICALLY: Adjusting moment by moment. Tired but stronger.

INSIGHTS:
The higher we soar the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly.
Friedrich Nietzsche

With every ‘crumbling’ or low point in life, we remerge strengthened, wiser, and almost refreshed.
Learn to trust that you can manage these days, when they over take you, let yourself be laid bare.

Allow yourself to ‘fall apart’ so that you can fall back together again when you are ready.
Once you are able to come through that, you will feel and understand who you are becoming…

THE COLLECTIVE:
“That energy for change is sweeping the world and, with the intent of the people, it is going to be like a tidal wave washing away everything in its path.” 

Salusa

Many of us are opening our eyes and our minds…finally understanding that all the trivia out there and the fake news, is but that, trivial and fake. I wish that we all graciously receive an understanding of the bigger picture…that there IS a greater plan. It begins with acceptance and faith.

AFFIRMATION: “Thy will be done, through me…”


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The Pause…

“If the world were merely seductive… 
that would be easy.

If it were merely challenging… 
that would be no problem.

But I arise in the morning torn
between a desire to change the world…
and a desire to enjoy the world.

This makes it hard to plan the day.”

E.B. White

DAY: It feels soft, mild, gentle, but still wet from the early morning mist. The blue sky is behind a misty veil giving the day a melancholy feel…I hear birdsong for the first time in ages, as they dart back and forth enjoying my morning offerings

WORD: Simplicity – Once we begin to uncomplicate our lives, we learn to float, to flow to trust…

COLOUR: Misty White

FEELING:

“I have been driven many times upon my knees

by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go”
Unknown

I have been ill for almost two months, but I am well on my way to a full recovery. It is a glorious feeling to feel well and healthy! Which we often take for granted. It has made me realise that we all need to take better care of ourselves, and not simply expect our bodies to manage all the shifts and changes we are all going through.

BODY: Recalibrating, resting, listening, integrating, settling.

THE COLLECTIVE:

“The faster we run, the more determined is the
Universe to slow us down.

Are we all still sleeping?
Many around us want to engage us in their fears and cynicism. I have felt this myself, seen it, read and acknowledged that its happening out there.

We need to accept and know that we are worthy – and that in our heart of hearts we know which direction to take, to find our own middle ground.

Feelings of ‘detachment’ from the everyday dramas we see and read of, gives us time to clear our mind and find clarity within. This is a good path to follow.

INSIGHTS:

“When setting out on a journey,

do not seek advice from those who have never left home…”

Rumi

I listened to a lengthy discussion by someone who had never left their town, or their country. Yet they were convinced that they held the answers to the problems of our world.
It made me stop and think of how we ourselves limit our own scope, our vision and our true understanding.
We have the choice to seek truth and broaden our vision, bringing deeper understanding and compassion for our fellow man.

I am at the completion stages of writing a book about my extraordinary childhood in Africa. As I wrote, delving deep into the past with intricate detail, it brought up many deep old wounds.

Over the months I have come to realise:Forgiveness is key to balance and harmony.

I, (and others I know), am currently dealing with my past, which includes ancestral history, much of which needs deep healing, before we are able to find the inner peace we seek.

What I am beginning to understand more fully is that our own history needs to be accepted and honoured. Its all part of our current ’story.’
Our story, is entwined with that history – what ever has happened to us along the way – is what has shaped us into who we are, and who we are still becoming…

Often, it is through the most challenging experiences that we eventually rise up from it all and grow exponentially.

AFFIRMATION:

“I give thanks for radiant health and endless happiness”

“Like threads in a tapestry of human form and universal existence, we unweave old stories, traumas,timelines and distortions, we reweave new threads, with the pure essence of our consciousness”


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Rest and Quietness…

Run My Dear,
From Anything That May Not Strengthen
Your Precious Budding Wings.
Run Like Hell My Dear,
From Anyone Likely To Put A Sharp Knife Into The Sacred,
Tender Vision Of Your Beautiful Heart.
Hafiz

TODAY: ‘I greet you on this most glorious of days, days of light, dark, wind and rain…what is to follow is change most victorious with re-alignments of both the planet and her people…’*

I woke to a day that felt uncertain, fresh, cloudy, with soft beads of water hanging on everything outside, from a night of gentle rain.

WORD: Timelessness

COLOUR: Gold

I FEEL:
To everyone I offer quietness
To everyone I offer peace of mind
To everyone I offer gentleness 

This year, including these past weeks…has been a roller coaster ride, with many dramatic highs and shattering lows. Occasional nano seconds of fear and panic, followed by hope and elation. Other moments of complete weakness and a need for sleep, yet a restlessness within.

Often I have felt alone, depleted, bare…followed by new realisations, growth and forgiveness. Understanding and acceptance have been constant.

INSIGHTS: Our journey has to be through Grace. For many of us, past experiences are being acknowledged and released so that we may walk through any storm, taller and with Grace.

Look at the World and look at your life…we each need to make sacrifices, perhaps starting with very small ones, moving through and towards larger compromises – this leading us back to balance as humans, as a society and for our life on Earth.

THE COLLECTIVE:
“We ask today for rest and quietness, unshaken by the world’s appearances”
A Course in Miracles

Each one of us is different and needs different…
Some of us are more sensitive than others. Once we begin to understand who we are and how we react to outside issues and events, we can begin to make changes that will allow us to bring our best to each day.

If you find certain days more of a struggle, slow down and take it easy. Take a day to rest. The world isn’t going to go anywhere while you recover. And when your feel re-balanced and whole again, go back out into the world to play, to share, to give.

AFFIRMATION: “I AM truly Blessed every day…”

‘Someday everything will make perfect sense’
Paulo Coelho

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*Taken from a channelled message received by me.


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The Winds of Change Continue…

TODAY:

“The tangle of blackberries and nettles among the apple trees were more spiritual to me than walking the Tor. The frosty grass and crisp morning feels like something that must have been a past life”

Its a cool hazy day, my narrow view of the Abbey Orchard is peeping through the tall trees, the abundance of blossoms in the early morning haze, seem to be twinkling. The Starlings, Blue-Tits and House Sparrows are fetching food eagerly from the feeders for their young. Two juvenile Squirrels are darting back and forth over my wall to fetch peanuts. Life is good.

ONE WORD: Gratitude

COLOUR TODAY: Rose Pink

HOW I FEEL:

“If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn’t lead anywhere.”

Most of my Blog followers are not aware that I am in the process of writing a book. My first. This has taken much of my attention and focus over the past few months. To be honest, although encouraged for a very long time, especially by my dear friend Michael in Oregon, I did not believe I had it in me to write and complete a book. To date I am beyond the half way mark, much to my surprise. I have enjoyed the process as the story has poured forth with ease…And its not related to any of the several Therapies I taught over many years, but more of an autobiography, highlighting the many intriguing characters who passed through my life from childhood.

PHYSICALLY:

‘I am strong because I know my weaknesses.

I’m alive because I’m a fighter.

I am wise because I’ve been foolish.

I laugh because I’ve known sadness…’

I have been in ill health on and off for about two to three months and it has taken much of my vitality. There have been days when it has seemed never ending and too great a challenge to endure, but in the past two days, though not out of the woods yet, I sense in my body a strengthening and some real improvement.

INSIGHTS:

‎”Even when you think you have your life all mapped out, things happen that shape your destiny in ways you might never have imagined.” Deepak Chopra

We live in uncertain and ever changing times, that is evident. We don’t wish to judge or over react, but there is fear, lack of clarity and too many changes to what was familiar in our community or culture and that is challenging for many to reconcile or accept. Our minds, bodies and daily lives are or will be affected.
‘The wind shows us how close to the edge we are.’
Joan Didion

THE COLLECTIVE:

‎’It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.’
Henry David Thoreau

Focus on what you love to do, where you love to be and live that way. Encourage those around you to move more strongly towards what is meaningful and satisfying. Close your mind to the daily overload and overwhelm of false news, bad news and political agendas.

Uplift yourself to new heights and focus on a clear vision of how you wish your life to be, and go in that direction. Let go of what disturbs, upsets or bothers you…Read books that inspire and uplift, play music that touches your heart and soul, eat carefully, sleep earlier, rest often play more and smile. Keep you energy clear, your heart open and your mind uncluttered. That is what I have decided, is the best way forward for myself.

“There are those days when it’s hard to put one foot in front of the other,

but those are the days when champions are created.”

AFFIRMATION: “I happy, health, wealthy and wise…”

Give thanks to those who have secured their Awakening; their example will light your way now too.
Remember always, you are here to grow…
You are here to learn.
Keep asking questions.
Live your life with Wonder.
Love one another.
And forever and ever,
Shine on.

Except from: Bill Attride – Astrologer – (in his article today)