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A Second Wind…

Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead.
 Louisa May Alcott

TODAY:

A cooler morning. Fine mist above the taller trees. I see fine wet cobwebs…The day feels soft and delicate. Or is that me. 

ONE WORD: Gratitude

COLOUR: Green

I FEEL:

I have thought often of my Blog page and those who follow my posts. I want to apologise for not writing any recent Blogs…but where has this year gone. We seem to have travelled though time at supersonic speed.

I have faced many challenges this year so far, physically and emotionally. It has been that way for many. A year of change with no more sitting on the fence.

I have also reworked and polished my book about my childhood in S.Africa during apartheid, (yet to be published). There was more work there than I thought when I typed the last word! I am doing my final read/edit and am happy with it. It has taken 18 months to complete. It has been cathartic in many ways and a real struggle too. Who would have thought!

‘Colonial Africa – white men with their exclusive clubs their cocktail parties and their delicate wives.’

Ann Cleeves  

“It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life.

Where you stumble, there lies your treasure.”

Joseph Campbell

My path has become a deeply spiritual life and for that reason, solitary…The energy of Glastonbury and the ‘free-spirit’ attitude (I am a city girl at heart), has allowed me time and space to do a deep level of inner work. While writing it became clear why I am here at all…I often wondered.

INSIGHTS: The final months this year will continue to challenge and surprise us all. Be aware of your own limits. Many of us need time out to find a ‘second wind.’  There will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too lethargic to go about our usual routine…I have learnt to pay attention to my needs and rest. I hope you do the same.

AFFIRMATION: “I AM powerful, loving and unafraid…”

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A Tug Of War…

“Our feelings and emotions are like the tides of the ocean, 

never constant, but ever-changing and as unpredictable as waves.”

DAY: Bright, heavy with heat

WORD: Thoughtful

COLOUR: Aquamarine

FEELING: Alert, timeless. Since the Solstice I have felt the energies vary and shift frequently. After that day when the energies felt very powerful, I have experienced moments of feeling stretched and expansive, yet other moments of real physical sensitivity and discomfort.

The sudden arrival of coach loads of visitors to the town, to enjoy the warm summer days, has brought a feeling discord in the town…This will pass.

BODY: The warm sunny days have brought me a deep sense of wellbeing and joy The nights too hot to sleep restfully. Reading until 2am and in the stillness of the early hours, I was filled with deep reverence and peace… a quiet joy. And So It Is.

COLLECTIVE: Waiting. It feels as if the world is at war; different countries, differing groups, individuals, youngsters, teens, entire families and some at war with themselves! I am beginning to see more clearly and understand that it is the ‘old’ ways of ‘being’ dropping away. We are observing the many hanging on tight, with what they know to be familiar, because they feel safer living with that.

Life right now is a tug of war between the Old and all that is New, which is as yet unknown.    

INSIGHTS: Its important to spread our thoughts and beliefs in a loving and peaceful way, for the future to regain balance and harmony. Sit quiet and find your own answers. Find what resonates, what you feel in your heart and trust that to be your best way forward.


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Live Today…

TODAY: 

Let go of what has passed. Let go of what may come.

Let go of what is happening now. 

Don’t try to figure anything out. Don’t try to make anything happen. 

Relax, right now, and rest. 

Tilopa 

ONE WORD: 

Live!

COLOUR:

Green – Today, after using every tool I know, to feel ‘better.’ I saw in my minds eye, during a meditation a Green Heart, the colour becoming deeper and deeper…

After, I reached for a bottle of my Colour Matrix – Green Heart of All Things – to use myself…it felt so right! I sprayed around my heart, all of my body, then the room. I felt uplifted, lighter in my heart…

 

HOW I FEEL:

‘Most days it looks as if we live in the comedy zone dimension, filled with scary clowns.’

Gillian Macbeth-Louthan

I have become more aware of what I watch (TV/You Tube/News/Twitter etc) and have begun to read less about what is, what’s coming and what is ahead. This way its easier to stay true to my authentic nature. I am also far more attentive of the foods I select, using the best quality food and drink I can afford. This way we can remain positive, fresh and light. 

There are times when we all run back into old tired patterns of a well worn path, because as we step towards what is said to be all light, we find ourselves in a place of confusion, sadness and fatigue… 

PHYSICALLY:

‘Your body will need all the help you can give it to integrate these new energies.’

Celia Fenn 

While integrating new energy, I usually feel sensitive, feel everything too deeply and  then I sense what’s coming next – I feel ill at ease, often ’sick to the stomach…’ and my heart cries out to the world! 

On such days I rest more, and give myself what ever feels right to get me through, knowing that ‘this too shall pass…’ 

INSIGHTS:

‘Many of us are ashamed by the actions of our species.’ 

If we don’t become attentive inside our own personal ‘bubble of life’, we will go through phases of being unable to manage our lives. Many may reach rock bottom before change becomes possible (been there), others will burn out, many will simply leave… 

For myself, I use techniques and processes daily. I meditate, listen to my body and pay careful attention to my needs. I often stay home for weeks, when the energies are fragmented out there…here in my own safe haven, I am assured of a feeling of balance and harmony.

There are times when one has to dig deep to stay ‘real and true’, to stay in that balanced place, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Making sure that self talk is not angry, frustrated, forlorn or defeated… 

THE COLLECTIVE: 

“Your soul knows the geography of your destiny.”

John O’Donohue

You and I can not save the world! Does She need saving (another subject)? We can save ourselves as we live though this extraordinary time on earth, by being aware, not of others and their needs – but our own.

Sit tight with big decisions. Focus on what you wish to let go of – job, home, name, friends, relationships…Do not let doubt or uncertainty stop you.

Make peace with your choices, make space for what’s coming. Allow. Embrace all that is coming towards you and who you are becoming. Begin to find where you belong, listen to your heart and go where you feel led to be…Go!

AFFIRMATION:

“I am perfect just the way I AM”


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Understanding…

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold evermore wonders.” 

Andrew Harvey 

TODAY: The day is undecided – rain or dull heavy clouds. I feel chilled, silent, deep, touched by Gods constant rain…There is a fine mist outside, the earth sodden, the world asleep.

WORD: Expectant

COLOUR: Green

I FEEL:

“I became aware of my destiny: to belong to the critical minority as opposed to the unquestioning majority.”

Sigmund Freud

Restless yet lethargic. Am I awakening to a more realistic view of life on earth? My Heart is filled with love and awe, as well as disappointments and sadness. Am I misunderstanding or simply misunderstood.

PHYSICALLY:

Unsettled. Dealing with the death of my brother. Renewal in progress, processing emotions. Sleep comes and goes, days fly by…are there enough hours to just ‘be’, to feel, to know, to understand then to integrate and rest… 

INSIGHTS:

“Would you like to save the world from the degradation and destruction it seems destined for? Then step away from shallow mass movements and quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself.”

Lao Tzu

I am sensing that in the past few weeks, we have begun to regain balance and strength. Yet, there will be days when we feel overtired, overwhelmed, too weak to go about your usual routine…then rest, be kind, allow yourself time to regroup and refresh.

THE COLLECTIVE:

‘On this path you will find yourself many, many times resisting with every fibre of your being just being here. There are places that will open in this blossoming which you would not want to open.’

Chameli Ardagh

Life is hurling ahead at a speed that none can understand or believe – yet much time has passed and we are being reborn and almost able to ‘see’ a new vision with new eyes. I feel the changes hourly and understand the many fears and uncertainties.

‎”Throw back the shoulders, let the heart sing, let the eyes flash, let the mind be lifted up, look upward and say to yourself…nothing is impossible!”

Norman Vincent Peale


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Walking On Thin Ice…

TODAY:

We are all tired.

Really, we are.

It’s a hard road, but it’s also a beautiful one.

Jeff Brown

I woke on Friday to find thick snow had fallen. It was an icy cold morning. The wind fierce, the vision before me a carpet of pristine snow. The roof icy white and gleaming. The bare trees covered in heavy clumps of snow. The gutters and window ledges hung with clear icicles…

Yesterday, my small paved garden, had a layer of solid ice under the blanket of snow. I chopped and hacked to create a pathway to the bird feeders. It was tough work.

Later, I rewarded myself with freshly buttered scones and a pot of hot steaming coffee. I settled into my cosy haven for the weekend. Yet I felt unsettled…

Today after rain in the night, the snow has mysteriously disappeared. As if it never was. Traces of ice on my property are scattered around in small blocks. My body aches from yesterdays efforts to clear snow and ice but, today is bright. A fresh start awaits…

ONE WORD: Endurance

COLOUR: Ice White

I FEEL: Timeless.


For months, in between completing my first book, I have been deep in thought on perhaps too many matters…spiritual, scientific, political, historic, personal – but mostly about the people, the animals and our environment.
Yet, I have felt far away from people and places. At a distance.

I have sensed both heaviness and light…as life shifts and weaves, moves, heaves and turns…the road falters, then alters course. We try to reverse but too late, onward we go. Are we on the right road, or, on a road to nowhere, I ask myself…

INSIGHTS:

“Change Follows Chaos…”
Everything around us is signalling for dynamic change. Celebrate it and let it be so. Live these coming months in a way that shows that you know that everything in life matters. I intend to do so.

I know many of us feel fooled, frustrated and tired. Yet around us life is shifting. The people, governments, the very earth and sky…

THE COLLECTIVE:

Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world.

Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before.

Let your soul take you where you long to be.

Close your eyes, let your spirit soar and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.


Erich Fromm

Life is full of unexpected surprises right now. Often they are a shock to us. Surely our main responsibility is to care of ourselves first! Or we could be at risk of burn-out at this time of fast paced living and change. Find balance and keep that balance. It is essential to every aspect of our survival.

I know many are dealing with insomnia, tension, sinus, tinnitus, headaches, feeling unsettled, even living on auto pilot. I have had to rearrange my daily routine to accommodate the strange sleep patterns I am having. I am going with it.

I understand that we are transforming ourselves on every possible level, and the transition from the ‘old’ to the ‘new’ is a daunting, often overwhelming process. Even if we have no idea what that means yet…

AFFIRMATION:

“I AM safe…”

 

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Our Unfamiliar World…

‘Another world is not only possible,
she is on her way.
On a quiet day,
I can hear her breathing.’

Arudhati Roy

I spent most of 2017 writing my first book. Its not the long awaited book on Colour Therapy, or healing modalities, or of spiritual wisdom that I have gained over too many years to mention…it is about my childhood in Africa, which was most unusual, to say the least. For the final three months I was very ill with pneumonia.

For that reason I have spent little time writing my Blog on WordPress. I once did so, almost daily. I also stopped writing my 7-page bi-monthly Newsletter last year, after 10 years.

I am working through the proof-reading and correcting of my first book draft. I have gone beyond the 82,000words/290 pages I anticipated would be ‘the end’ – as more insights and memories came to me. The proof reading is a time consuming task…


It has been an interesting, cathartic, joyful, amusing and often grippingly painful process, writing about my childhood. But I have no regrets about beginning the project. Now all I need is sound advise from an editor and of course, a publisher.

I have new plans and ideas for this year, but I firstly wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for their loyal support, kindness and encouragement through the years.
I know many of my long time followers, were deeply disappointed when I stopped the Newsletter, but the time felt right.

May this Year 2018 – offer you all that you have dreamed of and all that you most need.

‘Take my hand and lead me, to where I am meant to be,


I am so thirsty for this life and all I want to see,


Open my Heart and let me feel, the precious elixir of Living, 


show to me Unconditional Love, the true Gift of giving’

Bev Stratton-Poemper

DAY: Dull, low clouded sky, mist, damp, icy cold, washing away the last of the old…
The days merging into one another, with constant wind, rain and cold.

WORD: Communication

COLOUR: Fiery Red

FEELING:

“I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go”
Unknown

I have had several challenging nights, with little sleep. Feeling unsettled, restless…yet filled with new ideas, brain storming, recharged and inspired.

BODY: In need of more sleep.

INSIGHTS
“Between the lines we are being energetically whacked, as the winds of change move through us.”

I know that right now few of us recognise our outside world. And for now, and in months to come, it may not look or sound anything like you imagined it to be. Its not what you dreamed, Its not what you imagined.
Let me tell you that your dream will come – but for now accept that our world is dismantling the old systems and all that it carried. Any signs of fear, discord even violence, need to be seen as part of a huge cleansing.

I believe life on Earth has a complex agenda, often so intricate that the human mind can not grasp what is happening. We need to trust and know that on a very deep soul level we understand that we are safe…

‘One of the most important things to be understood about man is that man is asleep. Even while he thinks he is awake, he is not. 

His wakefulness is very fragile; his wakefulness is so tiny it doesn’t matter at all. 

His wakefulness is only a beautiful name but utterly empty.’

THE COLLECTIVE:
‘The days come and go. If we do not use the gifts they bring, they say nothing and carry them silently away. Life is a daring adventure, meant to be experienced with love.’

Many are in need of healing, feeling frazzled and raw, needing to express feelings. There are old and new thoughts and feelings surfacing.

‘The Winds of Spirit are blowing stronger now, and it is most useful to have a better sense of how to find your way in a world that is increasingly unfamiliar.’

Bill Attride

AFFIRMATION: “I move forward with grace and gratitude…”

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12:12

In the unfathomable depths of Stillness


Love is all pervading
In Silence I perceive

In Silence I receive
 – Pure and Holy Blessing.

In Silence

I Am found.

Nicolya Christi

The final days of 2017 are leading us to a new year…2018 (=11) approach us rapidly now! Many changes have occurred this year. Many events experienced. We have each done well to get this far!

Now, keep your loved ones close, your home filled with love, your health stable. Eat from reliable sources. Drink more water and ensure that it is pure, charged with good vibrations.

Allow your sleep to be ‘broken’ if that is how it is, use the waking time wisely and your sleep hours to rest and recoup. Embrace your life in this coming new year, appreciate all that it is. Expand your consciousness to encompass and embrace a new future…

I feel joyous to be here, enriched by each and every challenging experience that 2017 presented me with.
I bow to the Grand Plan and its complexities, its sheer brilliance. I bow in total devotion and surrender to the Creator and the majesty the magnificence of this planet.

There are no need for more words, no need for arguments, no confirmation, no dramas. There is only a field of DIVINE LOVE, where all words come to pass into nothingness. It’s a ‘place’ where truth speaks on its own.
I will meet You there…”

“Beneath our efforts to put spiritual form into our lives,

the world slowly accumulates, starting with the whole of matter,

that which will make of it the Heavenly Jerusalem or the New Earth”

Pierre Teilhard De Chardin – Le Milieu Divin